“Success is not wicked”
C.G. Thomas
I was excited to have finally received my formal introduction into the upper middle class. I’ve been striving to achieve this my entire career. After all, it is a huge accomplishment and has broken a few generational curses, so… why do I feel gut wrenching embarrassment when I talk about my success?
The typical American dream consists of having a high earning job, a home, and three and a half children. Oh and I can’t forget the pup, this is a must have. This signifies success and when you add the skin tone component to the equation it represents great success when achieved. So… why do I feel a gut wrenching embarrassment when I discuss said success? I can tell you a couple of scenarios that sparked my anxiety.
The “Your job doesn’t make you better” syndrome
There is something about increase that makes other envious. I’ve been the victim of the jealousy bug myself so I know how to call it when I see it. I believe people naturally gravitate to a “less than” emotional state of mind when they are still trying to achieve financial freedom. The funny thing is that most people, at least the people in my circle don’t feel a sense of arrogance because of financial freedom. Actually, we are open books, willing to extend a helping hand to help you get there too.
The Fear of Failure
When I first started earning above average pay I was terrified! It had to be a fluke because I did not have a college degree, I was a person of color, and female. Now I’m going to stop for a minute and clarify something; in no way do I believe my skin tone and gender is a bad thing. I’ve only mentioned it because history has shown us that the color of my skin and the fact that I am indeed female can be a limiting factor when seeking employment. I just wanted to clear that up for all the liberated people of color (I digress).
Anywho… I was seriously afraid. I spoke with my mother who reminded me that I was fully equipped, spiritually and mentally to overcome every obstacle that I would be presented with. It was not the time to quake and quiver at success but instead we should enter a stage of preparation. I have a favorite scripture:
Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you said the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future.”
NIV Bible
Remember, you were predestined to be right where you are. Trust the process.
Listen, success is measured differently for everyone and I don’t know what it looks like for you. What I will tell you is that you should give yourself a little grace and if you are still waiting for your turn don’t lose faith. Continue to be diligent in your pursuit and trust me it will happen when you are ready to handle it. Lastly, the overflow is not for you, share the wealth!
I hope you have enjoyed your view inside the mind of Sugar Clark.
Be Blessed!
